-imperfection-

i shudnt have said that. its my personal stuff n its a part of story that people might get it wrong even though that was not what i meant. i mght have been too emotional but i shudnt.anyway,its up to people's interpretation. thinks positively,u'l b fine.i know too many things. im so angry and confused,n so sick.cnt even organise my thinking n feeling. all are mix up. but,i am n was sincere when i wanted everything ends in a good way. if i cant have a friend, i cant have an enemy too.i was conscious for what i did. i dont need to say more than that. i always believe girls wont b same like a guy, they r more understanding and rational.they wont put their egoism first in considering thing. their hearts are just so pure and white that they cant be so ego and let anger ruins everything.they shud always know to differentiate what is wrong and right tho people always say women will let emotion leads their action. NO. not always. and girls who understand other girls, they wont b so selfish. they will always put themselves in others' shoes.

but when i say im angry for one thing,its not an overwhelm. i hate and angry when it comes to things like men r playing with girls' feeling. n the worst is,i know they really wanna play with it.just for fun mybe. n the person is so close to me.demmit. i wont be so busybody with people past,thats their personal stuff. and never put my personal stuff  as what people need to be concerned too. but if thing happens right if front of my eyes,and drag me inside too, being betrayed and cheated..i'l never can take it easy.i could be so mad n more mean than what the devil cn do. just to say how i hate to see men oppressing women and hate it when its so related to me.put my feeling aside,im not stupid n never letting emotion guides me or an affection blinds me. so see who supposed to be blamed,so blame them. not the victim. so this is how finally i feel like protecting everyone including myself.this is  impossible.yeah,its my bad.

Thanks Allah finally things getting better. not being so stereotype here, i can accept that men dont always a heartless.they learn to be mature so slow and just realised it is wrong to do when we knocked them on their heads. give a forgiven, u'l feel calm too if being in peace is important to u.dont let hatred and anger wrap u into irrationality. give chances for people to change and amend their mistake.not even single person on this earth can avoid from making mistake so dont let the forgivable one ruins everything.it might not easy to forget..but accept it as a lesson of ur life. i wish... everything is gonna b ok. i just wanna hv a real happiness and appreciate what i have now no matter if its only for a while, as my life never offers me that since i was a kid...