Its a matter of time

im spending my time lately visiting my fren's room.
i'v been listening to different version of stories bout others' problem in their relationshp when i talked to my fren
suddnly i just realised
so many gurls have had their hearts broken
n they just like me, crying like hell n then they move on
forcing themselves to be strong, to face the world n walk alone without fear
smile whenever they can eventhough their hearts nevr stop crying
its a matter of time
the more time passes, the lesser the pain
coz we tired of thinking the same uncertain things over n over again
it doesnt mean that we have forgotten what had happend to us, but time will heal evrything
coz we started to know that nothing can hurt us more after some times

its weird coz now im start wasting my time aimlessly
i will randomly chat with my bf's fren who also my fren without thinking to ignore his buzzes
mybe coz i'l feel close to my bf when i talk to this guy
coz i know they do see each other everyday
i cant see the point saying this,but i have such feeling
the loneliness in me need to be cured
n im begging to anyone without realising what i am doing
i miss my bf, so somehow talking to his fren is just like im walking with his shadow
i cant reach him yet i know theres sumthing related to him is near with me

i dont know what gonna b happened next
im x expecting sumthing worse
i do hope for better ending
but im always telling my self
now..i can just dreaming
one day i'l wake up, n all the dreams gone.

my heart is getting colder now.
feelingless even.
but sumtimes when the memories come..
i'l cry.
well,im a girl. a gurl who is ignored n unloved.
and crying is the best way to make me feel better as i feel tired wasting my tears, im gonna fall asleep.
all the pain gone. n i'l forget everything 4 a while.
this is how im survive till i reach a point when i can smile again n walk confidently as i know nothing can hurt me more.
its a matter of time.